I just found that tomorrow is the day!!!
Not Saturday. It's tomorrow!!! OMG!!!
Well, basically, it is good to know the result as soon as possible no matter how anxious I am. I had a nightmare last night. I dreamed that all my partners passed the exam except me. They told me they could not pratice speaking with me anymore. Please tell me it was not real...please!!!
Finally, I survived...from IELTS!!!
I was very anxious since Thursday. I thought it was because my worst situation. I got the fewest points from my recent model tests; my speaking was broken; my writing was terrible that I never finished two tasks in 1 hour. Everything was just out of control!! That made me worried and frustrated.
I played my parent's favorite computer game for 3 hours to make myself calm down. Also, thanks for Jean and Big E..They gave me the most encouraged words and shared some fascinating pictures and podcast with me. These stuff were brilliant, quite helpful for easing my anxiety.
I am very nervous at the moment. Only 1 day left!!! My test is coming!!
However, I found my English is not as fluently as usual. What's happened?? I don't know. All i know is i am anxious, uneasy, and afraid! I am afraid that i will fail again! I can not keep staying at home for studying anymore. I need fresh air, i need friends, i want to do something else, i want to travel!!!
Please bless me!! I want 7! My lucky 7!!
兩個禮拜之後要面對的是第二個留學考試-IELTS，雖然之前有上過課，也有考試經驗，但是面臨七分的門檻，還是覺得壓力很大，尤其是在Speaking & Writing這兩個自己無法平分的項目上，有種在黑暗中前行的恐懼。
之前幾個禮拜，還可以很輕鬆面對這個考試的我，居然在這幾天開始感到焦慮。沒想我這個比賽前不會緊張的人，遇到這種生命中重要的考試，還是會不安。我想把這個緊張比做某次大逆轉的雙打賽的話，我現在應該要想的是我考完可以去哪間餐廳吃好料，所以親愛的鄉親，請大家提供我幾家高雄好吃的餐廳吧!
激勵自己激勵完了，該念的書還是要念，接下來每天的功課就是：
這麼認真念書好像已經是很久之前的事了!
之前在台北的一個月也還蠻認真的，但是畢竟是台北，誘惑很多，還有朋友的邀約。雖然念書的時候很認真，但是常常三天曬網兩天捕魚，有些時間就這樣不知不覺得浪費了。再加上要整理行李，專注力就差很多了。十二月搬回高雄之後，每天的生活就只有念書和運動。一天大約念8小時，這樣聚精會神、全神貫注的念書，好像回到準備高中聯考的那段時間。通常人家都會說大學聯考比較認真，但是我大學聯考的時候，幾乎是有點自暴自棄、半放棄了，所以並不算是很認真。倒是考高中的時候，因為有一個強烈的目標，所以還蠻努力的。另外，大學的時候也很認真，不過那種認真又不太一樣，是認真玩樂、功課也不能馬虎的那種認真。
雖然早就有心理準備，念GMAT並不容易，但畢竟之前也都是聽別人說，一切都還是等自己念了之後，那個感受才是最深刻的。尤其我選擇了不補習，身旁也沒有同樣是準備這個考試的朋友，所以所有事情都是自己來，找教材、找補充資料、找讀書方法...等等。雖然網路資訊發達，找資料很容易，也有很多前輩分享他們的考試經驗，但是卻要花大量的時間過濾、整理資料，消化資訊，找出適合自己的讀書方法，再不斷的練習。就這樣埋頭苦幹的念，一開始還衝勁十足，到十二月中的時候就卡關了。一方面是答對率停滯不前，另一方面是本人缺乏耐心，開始躁動。還好，那時GMAT界鼎鼎有名的傷咖在高雄辦了一個關於GMAT和MBA的聚會，對我來說真是天降甘霖的大好消息。這次的聚會，讓一直以來孤軍奮戰的我得到了支持，就是那種還有很多人也是和你一樣正為同一件事情而努力的支持，讓我可以再度打起精神，做最後的衝刺。
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